The Grass Isn’t Greener
About the Guest
Chris and Stephanie TeagueChris and Stephanie are the husband and wife duo, Out of the Dust, who began and continue their lives just outside of Nashville, TN. Their story of downfall, heartbreak, and miraculous redemption is woven deep into the fabric of their music. After growing up in church and marrying young, like so many young men, Chris slowly and quietly lost all faith in God during college. Even while slipping deeper into drugs and every other whim of his heart, he secretly managed an alter ego for years around c...more
Chris and Stephanie Teague talk about getting married as college students, and the cracks that soon appeared in their marriage. Chris shares why he walked away from his faith, and shortly after, from Stephanie.
The Grass Isn’t Greener
Bob: Chris and Stephanie Teague met in church—they fell in love / they got married—but Chris was not done chasing things yet.
Chris: I remember this pattern of idolatry in my life—jumping from one thing to the next; you know? First it was marriage; you know?—I thought that was going to be incredible and fix me and be everything. Then it jumps to school and music—and pursuing that. Then it jumps to drugs, because that didn’t do it. The parade of idols and counterfeit gods in my life—I welcomed them all; you know? They just all came down the pike, and nothing satisfied.
Bob: This is FamilyLife Today for Monday, September 25th. Our host is the President of FamilyLife®, Dennis Rainey, and I’m Bob Lepine. Chris and Stephanie Teague join us today to tell us about the undoing of their marriage. Stay with us.
And welcome to FamilyLife Today. Thanks for joining us. You know, every marriage is going to face some bumps in the road / some potholes—sometimes, when maybe you’ve got to pull the car off to the side and get things worked out. Some marriages face detours that are unexpected—and some detours, where you wonder if you’re ever going to get back to the right road, or maybe you don’t make it back on the right road.
Dennis: Well, I’m thinking of this couple. This is a situation where the bridge was out.
Dennis: It wasn’t a detour—it was out. It’s not often I introduce a couple as having been married since 2006 and 2011. [Laughter] That doesn’t happen very often; but I want to say, “Hi,” to Chris and Stephanie Teague, who join us from Nashvegas!
Stephanie: That’s right; hey!
Dennis: Nashvegas, near my grandkids.
Chris: That’s right.
Dennis: Yes; four of them.
Welcome to FamilyLife Today.
Stephanie: Thank you. Thanks for having us.
Dennis: I’m glad you’re here.
In case our listeners don’t know, they have formed a group called Out of the Dust. They have got a brand-new LP; is that right?
Chris: That’s right.
Dennis: Is that how you say it?
Stephanie: That’s right.
Chris: Long play.
Dennis: Long play; that’s right. Well, they have two children as well.
I want to take you back to when you met. Tell our listeners what happened in Philadelphia, Chris; we’ve got a lot of listeners in Philly that I think will be interested in this—WFIL.
Bob: Yes; this was a mission trip that you guys were on; right?
Stephanie: It was.
Chris: That’s right. They would be probably interested to know that it felt like a culture shock coming from Nashville—these two little small-town kids going to a big city. We were there to minister and do some VBS. Stephanie and I met at the training. I think she would tell you the guitar that I played probably had a big part in her attraction to me.
Dennis: Was his guitar prettier or more handsome than him?
Chris: Most definitely.
Stephanie: It’s definitely the combination of the two that gets any 16-year-old girl; you know!
Bob: Chris, you grew up in a home where your dad left your mom when you were young.
Bob: [Later,] he died when you were 12?
Chris: That’s right; yes.
Bob: And you were raised by your mom. Spiritually, it was kind of up and down for you throughout your young life?
Chris: I think so. God really became real to me when I was in high school. I got involved with a lot of ministries, there at the high school I was at. Then, I got into a relationship—like young kids do—and that sort of led to me falling away and turning away.
It was after that relationship ended that I felt—the crazy story is—I felt God tap me on the shoulder. I’m reluctant to say anything like that, but it was amazing—the story of how I ended up on the trip to begin with. We were sitting in the service. I felt a tap on my shoulder. My mom had been bugging me about it; so I turned to her to say, “Yes; I know; I know.” I turned, and she was just staring completely forward—her hands were in her lap.
I thought, “Oh, well, that’s weird!”
Stephanie: And this is as the pastor is saying, “Hey, we need some more people to come on the trip.”
Stephanie: “…on this youth trip.”
Dennis: So, Stephanie, what about you? Did you grow up in a Christian home?
Stephanie: I did.
Dennis: You had a faith from a young age?
Stephanie: Yes; yes. I was blessed to grow up in a very strong, Christian home—very loving home. Both of my parents were also raised in the church—so, really, a comfortable, safe environment.
Dennis: You had signed up early for the mission trip, then?
Stephanie: Oh, of course!—as soon as I heard about it. [Laughter]
Bob: And you were going with a noble mission-minded agenda.
Bob: You weren’t out scouting boys; right?
Stephanie: I was not; no! [Laughter]
Bob: But somehow, on that trip, the two of you—did one of you sit down on the bus next to the other one?
Stephanie: We kind of.
Chris: I think so.
Stephanie: Well, I—it’s so unlike me, but, you know—I had noticed him in training. I was intrigued by him. I specifically remember picking a seat kind of close to him, just so I could get to know him a little bit. You know, it was a 12-hour drive on a school bus from Nashville.
So we ended up—maybe halfway through the trip—groups of us starting playing cards. We ended up in the same group, playing Spades; I think—and kind of never stopped.
Chris: The rest is history.
Dennis: So how long before he asked you to marry him, and how did he do that?
Stephanie: It was, I guess, two years into dating. We were both in college, at that point, at MTSU. We were on a trip with his mom. She took us to—where were we?—Myrtle Beach, I think, South Carolina. He knew I loved the beach—one of my favorite places. So, he got me up at sunrise—we walked the beach, and he got down on one knee and proposed.
Bob: Chris, because your parents had divorced at a young age, how did that shape your thoughts about marriage? Here you are—diving in, early, to marriage.
Chris: Oh, yes.
Bob: Was that, in part, because of the divorce that had happened; do you think?
Chris: I don’t really know. I mean, I didn’t have an example. Becoming a father, just in the past couple of years, has helped me sort of deal with and unpack some of that stuff.
But I just didn’t really have a day-to-day—my grandfather was incredible—he was a huge part of my life; but I didn’t have a steady day-to-day dad coming home / mom saying, “Hey”; you know?—kissing and all—I didn’t have that. I didn’t have a good example. So I really was just sort of going in blind, you know, with my hands over my eyes, I guess, sort of hoping for the best.
Dennis: So, Stephanie, your parents had to spot that Chris came from a home, where there was a dad missing. Did they have any questions about this relationship and about—
Chris: Tell them what your mom said!
Stephanie: So about a week after we came back from the mission trip—or maybe just the Sunday after—my family always had / still do—we have Sunday lunch every week after church. It’s our family—my brother and his family; a couple other families, that are not by blood, but they’re family; and all of [us] kids. He came to a Sunday lunch right after the trip. My mom, immediately, when she saw him walk in—she thought, “He’s trouble.” [Laughter]
Chris: That was her first impression of me.
Stephanie: That was her first impression.
Chris: And she was right—to her credit.
Bob: So, if I were your dad, one of the questions I would ask you is: “Tell me a little bit about Chris’s walk with the Lord. Would you say he’s somebody who’s solid in his faith?” How would you have answered that before he proposed to you?
Stephanie: At that point, you know, when we started dating, we were seniors in high school. We spent hours at night talking on the phone—we would read passages together. God was very much the center of our relationship. We did all sorts of classes at church together. I think we truly were pursuing the Lord and what He wanted for our lives, but that slowly declined.
Chris: And I do—I remember—we would just talk on the phone: “Hey, guess what I read today! You’ll never—let me read this to you!” So, we definitely had God in the right place or were trying to keep Him at the center, very early on.
Bob: So while you were college students—
Bob: —20 and 19—
Bob: —you stood “before God and these witnesses,” looked each other in the eye, and said, “…’til death do us part”; right?
Stephanie: We did.
Dennis: Was there something about your wedding day that was out of the ordinary?
Stephanie: Well, being the musician that Chris was, he surprised me with a song that he wrote for me and sang it during the ceremony—had everybody crying in the ceremony. [Laughter]
Chris: It was a bit gratuitous on my part. [Laughter]
Bob: Walk over and get your guitar and let’s hear this.
Dennis: Chris, our audience gives us a lot of grace.
Dennis: I’m sure they’ll give you some too.
Chris: I think it was like:
My life is brighter; I breathe lighter;
I think—I think that you do too.
Bob: “When I’m with you”? [Laughter]
Chris: Yes! [Laughter]
Bob: Does that fit?!
Chris: Something about:
And I couldn’t be prouder
To say, “Forever begins tonight.”
Or something like that—I don’t know! [Laughter]
Bob: So everybody was crying.
Stephanie: That’s right.
Bob: Were you crying?
Stephanie: You know—
Bob: You had makeup on, so you—
Stephanie: Of course, I was tearing up; but I don’t think I was crying.
Bob: So, you begin “happily ever after” as college students. I asked you this, when we were talking earlier: “When did you start to notice that there were cracks in the foundation of your marriage?”
Stephanie: It wasn’t too long—you know, I would say in the first year of our marriage. Overall, it was great—it was kind of that stereotypical honeymoon phase; but there were definitely things that popped up—both of us coming in, as everybody does in a marriage, coming in with our expectations—some that we were aware of / some that we were not aware of.
Especially for me, coming from the home that I came from—and the home that he came from—him not having that daily picture of what a husband is like in the home, and me having that and expecting him to know that’s how he should be; right?—
—that’s how I expected him to be. I expected him to be home when I was home and to not go out all the time with his friends. You know, just different things that I very quickly saw: “Oh, okay! This is different than I imagined,” and I think, also, becoming almost prideful about it, like: “Well, he should know better! This is not right! He should know better.”
Dennis: So, hold on. He went out with his buddies?—
Dennis: —after he married you?
Stephanie: He did!
Bob: Like a Friday night?—where you’re both free; and he says: “You do whatever you want to do. I’m going to go hang out with the guys”?
Chris: —after work or—
Stephanie: Yes! Like I would think / I would expect him to come home after work. Instead, he’d want to go out and go hang out with his work buddies.
Bob: And somebody, along the way, suggested that the two of you guys should go to a Weekend to Remember®; right?
Stephanie: We did! I think that was a couple of years in; yes.
Chris: You’re skipping ahead. In the end, you know, we had some pretty huge potholes that we had to overcome; but at the time—
Stephanie: But there were some great breakthroughs.
Chris: Yes; we had some huge breakthroughs after that.
Bob: Do you remember anything from the Weekend to Remember that was kind of an “Aha!” moment for you?
Stephanie: I think the communication was huge—the session on communication—because we did not deal with conflict well.
Chris: We were polar opposites as far as personality. Any test that you take—if there’s a spectrum—then, we’re going to be at the opposite ends.
Stephanie: We’re always opposite.
Chris: —which is beautiful now, but—
Bob: And there did come a point, after you’d been to the Weekend to Remember, Stephanie, where you started noticing, maybe, some drifting / some isolation that was happening, where you just sensed that something wasn’t right in the relationship.
Stephanie: I did. Some of it was the people that he was hanging out with—people that, just in my spirit, I didn’t feel right about—but, again, our communication was so poor, at that point. If I said anything, he’d get defensive; or I would come across, I don’t know, kind of arrogant about it or judgmental. So then, of course, then he’s getting defensive.
I didn’t feel comfortable with his friends. He went on a trip with school to Russia; and he did admit to me some drug use that happened then, which was a little scary for me; because that’s something that I just had never been exposed to or expected to have in our marriage.
Chris: That is what came out of the FamilyLife conference, by the way.
Stephanie: It did; yes.
Bob: That’s where you fessed up?
Stephanie: Yes; he admitted to that; yes.
Chris: Yes; a few years before the big fall-out; yes.
Bob: What was going on with you?—to be curious about that and to want to experiment with that?
Chris: That’s the best question you could ask! After we went through what we went through, our pastor gave me a book called Counterfeit Gods by Tim Keller—incredible book! It helped me recognize this pattern of idolatry in my life, going from this thing to this thing. Nothing satisfies; so you just keep jumping from one thing to the next; you know?
First, it was marriage; you know? I thought that was going to be incredible and fix me and be everything—and that wasn’t so.
So then, it jumps to identity—and school and music—and pursuing that. Then, it jumps to drugs; because that didn’t do it. So, everything—
Bob: [Quoting from a song lyric] “You still hadn’t found what you were looking for.”
Chris: Yes; U2—great reference. Yes; the parade of idols and counterfeit gods in my life—I welcomed them all; you know? They just all came down the pike, and nothing satisfied.
Dennis: We scooted past it; but 1 Corinthians, Chapter 15, talks about bad company corrupting good morals.
Dennis: I don’t think we talked much about this; and we probably should, here, on the broadcast—that who you hang out with and who you are kindred spirit with is determinative around the spiritual well-being for your own soul—but also those who are closest to you—if you’re married: your spouse / your children. Talk about the influence these friends had on you and how dangerous it was.
Chris: That’s great. I was an only child. My mom—I never lived in the neighborhood that I went to school at—so I didn’t have the opportunity to just hang out with a lot of people. I spent a lot of time, alone, as a kid. As we got to college, it was like you’re right there—we’re living on campus; there are friends; we’re in college and married. I have friends at work, now, that live close.
I think, for the first time in my life—and this isn’t a pity party—this is just sort of where I was at that time—I had friends that I could go hang out with, you know, at a very prime time in my life. The places that I was at were college, and the music industry, and restaurants with servers. I did notice that there was an influence; but at that time, there was a naiveté about what it was doing to me.
Dennis: You’re nodding your head, Stephanie.
Stephanie: Yes, yes; because I could see it. I could see it when he came home. I could see the conversations that would happen—just the way of thinking was shifting.
Bob: And Chris, some of what was going on in your own heart and your own thinking—you weren’t sharing with anybody—
—but you were starting to question your faith; right?
Chris: Absolutely! I’ve always loved science and apologetics; but as you—again, as you go off to university and get in that life and that realm—I didn’t have any professors, necessarily, that were just shoving it down my throat—you know—godlessness and “How can you believe that?!”—but slowly, the naiveté—those things can be subversive to faith if you don’t know what to look for / if you don’t—and not sharing that with anyone, and keeping that all inside—because, like I said, I did spend a lot of time alone. Even though I’m an extrovert, I’m a bit of a weird extrovert; because I hide—I’m a great hider!
And some of those things, when you live in a household and grew up in community where—not feeling safe about being able to share some of these things that you find—some of these: “Hey, I heard this on this documentary. What’s going on with that?”—
—not having that checks and balances system / the naiveté that I had—I didn’t see. The wall gets built behind you, brick by brick; and you don’t see the bricks being laid until you turn around one day and see that there’s this huge wall between you and God or you and your wife. It happened so slowly, at times, that I didn’t even see the bricks that were going down.
Dennis: What you’re really talking about is hanging out with people who have a worldview that is different than someone who has a biblical and a God-centered worldview.
Dennis: And if you’re going to hang out with those people, they’re going to train you to think differently about circumstances, and about life, and choices than those who are influencing you for Jesus Christ.
Parents, who are listening to this—kind of thinking about raising their sons or daughters and going, “I don’t want to see my kids go through that,”—you have to train them in how to think, critically.
I know, if Barbara were here, she’d be pounding the table with us around helping your children—helping the singles in your life, who you’re friends with—think about life from the Book—not to the Book—but from the Bible, allowing the Bible to inform your decisions, and who you hang out with, and how you behave.
Bob: Stephanie, all of this led to an evening—
Bob: —where you were expecting that you and your husband were going over to your family’s house for dinner.
Bob: He came home and said, “I need to talk.” What he said was stunning.
Stephanie: Yes; he just said, “Hey, can you sit down for a minute?”—a minute / ha!—a minute—he needed to tell me something. Literally, what came out of his mouth was: “I don’t believe in God anymore, and I don’t want to be married anymore.”
Dennis: How long had you been married?
Stephanie: At that point, it was three-and-a-half years.
Dennis: The unthinkable.
Bob: And blindsided you completely?
Stephanie: Absolutely; I had seen the cracks / I had seen little red flags pop up. I didn’t press into them / I didn’t confront him about them; because our communication was so poor—I felt like: “What’s the point?”—you know—“He’s just going to get defensive and argue about it.”
And I just assumed—I tend to assume the best about people—to a fault, sometimes. I had just assumed: “He’s working through it. It’s fine. He’ll get through this.” And about a month before that night that he sat down and told me that, I had started noticing a pulling away, more so than just, “Well, we’re in kind of a rough period.” I noticed a pulling away. I remember even thinking, “I really have got to find a way for us to sit down and talk about this.”
I didn’t get to that point; because that night, he sat me down and I knew nothing.
I knew nothing of any drugs. I had no idea he was at the point that he was with his faith or with our marriage. I had no idea!
Dennis: You were hiding from your wife.
Chris: There you go. I’m great at it; yes.
And I did want to jump in—I remember several really key moments in my life, on the negative end of the spectrum—and it goes back to the garden, in my opinion / you know, with Adam and Eve—the serpent / the adversary said, “Did God really say that?!” And some of the most pivotal moments in my life that have led to the biggest destructions are when I knew in my heart—you know, we said—we said: “We will never get divorced”; you know? And some of those times—when I remember / I look back and I heard the whisper: “Do you really have to stay married? Do you really have to?” Those smallest ideas can just blossom in your mind if there’s fertile soil for them to take root in.
My life, at that time—what I was doing, who I was hanging out with, the things I was reading, the fact that I was hiding—that seed planted and grew into me sitting her down and saying, “I don’t want to be married anymore.”
Dennis: And how long before you divorced her?
Chris: It was very quick after that conversation. I mean, I filed papers within—
Stephanie: —a few months.
Chris: Yes; as soon as I could find a lawyer; you know?
Dennis: At the Weekend to Remember, our marriage getaways, we talk about how every marriage is either moving toward oneness or it’s moving toward isolation.
Dennis: And what you guys have described here is you getting isolated from your wife, and you allowing him to be isolated—
Dennis: —without challenging him, and going after him, and confronting him. In isolation, the enemy can convince you of anything.
Dennis: And that’s exactly what happened.
Bob: I’m just sitting here, thinking about what’s going to be taking place this coming weekend in Tampa, Florida, as couples get together for our Weekend to Remember marriage getaway in that city. We have a lot of couples who come at various places in their marriage—a lot of couples who are doing well and they simply want to do preventative maintenance on their marriage—but there are couples at various stages of isolation when they show up at the Weekend to Remember. Over those two-and-a-half days, we see couples who begin to move toward one another / move toward oneness in their marriage; because they learn some things they hadn’t realized. They begin to apply what the Bible teaches in their marriage; and by the time the weekend is over, they have both hope and help for their marriage again.
I would just encourage our listeners—if you’ve never been or if it’s been more than five years since you attended a Weekend to Remember marriage getaway—
—join us at an upcoming getaway this fall. Go online to find out when a Weekend to Remember is coming to a city near where you live. Find out more about the Weekend to Remember at FamilyLifeToday.com, or call 1-800-FL-TODAY if you have any questions.
When you visit the website, there’s also information about the music CD that Chris and Stephanie Teague have recorded under the name, Out of the Dust. There are 11 tracks on the CD, and you can order copies from us at FamilyLifeToday.com; or call if you’d like to order the music CD. Again, the number is 1-800-358-6329; 1-800-“F” as in family, “L” as in life, and then the word, “TODAY.”
You know, one of our convictions, here, at FamilyLife is that the God of the Bible is the God who can take things that are dead and can bring them to life. He’s the God who raised Jesus from the dead / He’s the God who brings us from spiritual death to spiritual life.
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Now, tomorrow, we’re going to hear about the events that led up to the end of Chris and Stephanie Teague’s marriage—what led them to divorce. I hope you can tune in for that.
I want to thank our engineer today, Keith Lynch, along with our entire broadcast production team. On behalf of our host, Dennis Rainey, I'm Bob Lepine. We’ll see you back tomorrow for another edition of FamilyLife Today.
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